fuck love smt

why why do u do this to me? u are such an asshole. I always need to xome in order to see you. I know the days and every outside sxhool enent u have. when it start and finishes. and I am always the one to come and surprise and see you. even for just 10 min. because you have to leave. I always walk with you back to ur house and u never did to mine. on sleepovers at yours I was the one to come home alone. but when u came to mine I walked with u to ur house. u never want to give from your time. you are always studing for that and that. for so e fucking dumpass test and for shit rhe teachers wont even ask you becaus eyou already have more grades then anyone else. but u are alwaya busy with that. even when I hace olymiads and tbe last week I had I alwasy spend time with you just to be with yiu but yiu never. you never cared when I walk my dog to come and see me. you never xared where I go to outside achool ro come. I never miss you. u always say how you love me but never axtually show it. I dobt wanna change you or anything buy I cant stand it anymore. look now I am cring becaus eof you. smt I hate myself for giving you so much of mine time and I know I should stop and I will.  I just wanna cry about it still. I just wanted 2/3 days to be with me ans you have that shit test for which u ve been prepring this whole year and 2/3 days will make such a big deal. becaus eall u will do is study for that test of course. u are always the one to say u need to leave becaus eu need to study. u only have time for me when its not possible for u to study.
but this shall change.
u havr a bday tommmow. and what so. I also have important things to do. I also havr work. I also have tests and olympiads dreams I need to prepare for. I did stop coming to ur house and yeah that wont be just for this week. till the end of the fuxking month.and also well from now on I declare not war but rather this statment that untill end of month or shit changes I shall not come to see you when u come back from english or when u go to idk train whatever there otherwise if my will is too weak and I break this promise statement ( and I know I shouldnt dicide shit when iam angry or sad but fuck it) my dream wont be achieved.
fucking end

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