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isnt it stupid. how we waste most of our time for things that dont matter. since we are born we are made to do things we hate or and dislike. we are made to wake up early. go to kindergarten, school, work etc. and do shit we dont want. we die everyday for the time we will go home. we die every week for the weekend we die every year for the vacations. at the end we forget to live every moment and are left with regrets for the things that we didnt do. and thats for all well most of us. the ones who are average. who dont have the will to change. that are to lazy to do anything or too afraid of the critics that will follow from the same people who once tried and failed and gave up. they are your family your friends and colleagues. they envy you so they will try and stop you. isnt it so shit that there are some fucking 16 years old who live their life make more than you not just in money but more as in value for society. and you are here sitting and reading this shit and still procrastinating and waiting for that exact 8:00 to start for that start of the week for that begging of the month for the new year. but if u really want it if thats the purpose you live for you need to do it every single minute u have from your life from this point on till the end. no fucking vacations no fucking fooling around no sleep. its fucking stupid and sad and at the same tine funny how I always have this dream about doing something that well said determination and at the end is just a drive for a day or two and then I do nothing as before. it fucking annoys me how I have to work so much for some bullshit grades that base only on my memorizing skills and not the actual knowledge and wisdom. and they enslave you thay tell you how to think so they can easily control you. and back to my hardest and most important task so far. how do I make a habit? how do put my goal plan and actually follow this plan? I think that thats what separates average from people who actually achieve smt in this life. and I still dont have the answer but I am willing to try everyday and improve. so I shall write down how close I get to my dream everyday. and find this will and motivation. because yeah you watch this clip that fucking makes you a beast and you think pf all shit you will do from now on. but thats just for the week or so. and then again back to the average. fucking pisses me off man.